It has been such a long time and Im really missing deviantart.. I don't know why I've been so disconnected with my inspirations.. Im actually missing my old true friends I know they are doing different lifes I don't know why Im so lazy and stay here..this place is such a monster..I need to go away. My heart is screaming for a vacation far away!!!!!!! Actually Im not pretty sure about what to do next year...Its almost finnishing... this 2009 was a fucking year..I've been sick but now Im feeling a bit free.. I want to fly away!!!! I need to do terapy with my pencils... I don't know why I've been distant to my skills.. inspiration wasn't coming.. Im thinking about different options for next year.. first studying Arts at my city..(though I might go to university and I don't know why Im so afraid) second option is doing music.. I'd like to sing, playing the violin or piano to free my spirit..don't know what to choose..then Id like to be a chef.. but maybe its a waste of time.. Also Id like to study languages (I need to improve my english) german and french.. maybe I should do some dancing or act.. Dont know what to choose and time is ticking out.. what terapy would you recommend? the list is loooong...